I'm honestly a little freaked out because the healthcare system is so garbage here. I have Kaiser and it's normally good, but it feels like I have to give over an organ to see a cardiologist in person. I don't know why this is happening because I'm in perfect health based on all the tests they ran. It was only the stress test that showed blips as I was getting fluttering on the treadmill.

You're right--I love LA (more than New York, tbh, and NY is my home), but the expanse of it makes one feel lonely. I do have friends here and I tend to like to be alone, but there's something about the space here that feels...different.

I've always felt Europe would be better for some reason. Society is different. There's an element of collectivism. But even that feels Herculean now while I deal with this heart stuff.

I have to remind myself to get up and keep moving as that's the only want motion happens. If you move.

Sorry, friend, for writing a novel back to you :) I hope to see you when my travels take me overseas. xo